I decided to take things quiet for quite a while, and there was a good reason to it. There has always been a relationship in this small group I've been describing that I wasn't talking about intentionally. It was too hard for me to open up and say things out loud. Then it got worse, and I even stopped writing. Now, when I'm on the edge, I think it's time to open up a little. Even though it scares the hell out of me to say this out loud, but hell, I've got nothing to lose. As I'm writing this, you can possibly read through the style and metaphor and see that I'm actually the 3 part or a 3 wheel sometimes next to Annie and Nadine. Not too typical for girls as they tend to prefer pairs, but not too uncommon, just this. thing. the three of us. No questions here, it's all been around for a pretty long time. but there's me also being a friend of Zut which is in a way a violation of our 3 girls bro code, as the other 2 members tend to hate him on regular basis. You know, he's everywhere, just too posh and vain at times for them to like. And they're ...I guess too serious and too unflirty around him. And I am? What, exactly? have no idea where it all began. and I'll need a lot more space to describe this. and a lot more courage.