Hey, I just want to say once again - all the photos, pictures are not mine, I don't claim anything, everything belongs to the Internet.
This blog was created in terms of keeping some anonymity, I do understand this might make it boring, but I don't dare show you the real things and faces. This is how things work out now. People whom I see in real life and myself - they are in real life. Here, in the Internet - is just my story and some kind of pattern so you can actually imagine whatever you want. This is kind of creative at least I think so.
Ok, what is up next?
Oh sure, while I'm still into that stream - details of Zut.
1) Dunno why it should be the first one, but it just popped in my head so I"m going to write it now.
His girlfriend rings on his annular.
Oh God! Something is wrong and I can't upload a photo here so catch some more jabber.
It was some "hit of the moment" kinda situation when they exchanged their rings, since then though I see him wearing his very proudly. They are little and clearly feminine which somehow makes the rings suit the guy perfectly. I don't know why, but I always thought that this is kind of accessory which represents him the best.
2) Curls.
Hell yeah, ladies and gentlemen. Curls are the tool of the Devil, this is what I think. You hate your own because you feel stupid, but on the other people - people like the guy I'm talking about - curls are like a trademark on very expensive dress. They are the very beginning of Zut, first thing you learn about him - and hell yeah this thing tells you a lot, although I don't think he won't be himself without them. I actually think quite a contrary - he would be still his damn self or even better.
The curls together with rings I've already mentioned are signs of some softer side of his, I may even say sweet ( coconut shampoo, cinnamon cookies and cherries - as well as other food stuff - this kind of sweet, food-sweet. It's always food if you mean him!). So now you sure feel like there is some not-so-sweet side somewhere. Oh yes, you're right
3)Man-who-does-things-right walk.
He is the kid and a butterfly and a pencil which unites all the colors into some eye-killing one. With people of rubbish.
And with people of some "cool" sect...Oh well. I told you what he turns into.
Still a detail, though.
4) Mix of rock-grunge-luxury-heartbreaker kinda things in his wardrobe.
He has dirty as hell old gumshoes, a 7-year-old boy backpack, trendy skinny jeans, white jacket which is pretty rock-n-roll since it is crumpled badly but still a kickass, a winter coat which a business kinda guy would wear, glasses in this fancy black frame which is for sure taken from all this "heart breaker-bustard" kinda men, a tonne of old messy band name T-shirts, and a lot of other stuff, which is real mixture of everything.
5) His " vanity-bag". Any bag he has I always have a tendency to call this way. It has nothing to do with the size of his bags, but with the amount of things he keeps there. You know that joke that you can find anything in woman's handbag? It's like he might be called a woman according to this. You may happen to find there his sneakers, food, water, song lyrics, clothes, books and whatever else he feels necessary about. Not that my bag doesn't look like that. But other GUYS I know only have their pockets with keys and money. So I find his bag pretty...um lovely.
6) Photos. Something tells me he is not afraid of posing for a photo as, for example, I am. He has a bloody lot of his photos, tonnes and dozens and hundreds and...he looks very intense in every single of them. Not like some other people who are just in a pose or something. No. Every snap is just a moment of his life, nothing is intended, and a lot of energy comes from this things. Whenever wherever they are taken. Still smell the same.
SMELL LIKE TEEN SPIRIT
воскресенье, 10 июля 2011 г.
вторник, 5 июля 2011 г.
Details: Nadine
You see, while I'm still this obsessed with these two which actually came to my life quite recently I'm going to jump into that tide of thoughts and drink this personalities up. Maybe little things can show you them better that all of the huge words stuff I've written here before.
so.
DETAILS: Nadine
1) Her lashes.
They are something you kind of notice whenever you look at her. They are like all this girls in adverts and cartoons have - thick and heading right into the sky. She uses this mascara, I think.
I used to have the same but could never achieve such an effect. And till can't. And never will)
2)Her fingers.
Like any princess she has long fingers with long nails. White and red, white and brown, or just white. Her skin is soft and pale.
3) Her clothes.
She likes dresses. If she is to draw something during a boring lecture - she would draw a lady in a long strapless cocktail dress, like this one -
For her prom she had a really long low cut gown, which looked stunning on her cos she's really tall and thin (can't find any resembling in the Internet)
Speaking of decolletes, she has an amazing jersey with it so almost all of her back is opened.
She wears all the things I can wear - sexy dresses and tight jeans, quilling shirts and tank tops.Jeans and formal jackets.
4) High heels.
She doesn't wear any crazy Lady Gaga kinda heels, nothing too colorful or plastic or strange. She prefers something more convenient yet hot. Take a look!
She has it all, oh yeah, she rules it.
so.
DETAILS: Nadine
1) Her lashes.
They are something you kind of notice whenever you look at her. They are like all this girls in adverts and cartoons have - thick and heading right into the sky. She uses this mascara, I think.
I used to have the same but could never achieve such an effect. And till can't. And never will)
2)Her fingers.
Like any princess she has long fingers with long nails. White and red, white and brown, or just white. Her skin is soft and pale.
3) Her clothes.
She likes dresses. If she is to draw something during a boring lecture - she would draw a lady in a long strapless cocktail dress, like this one -
For her prom she had a really long low cut gown, which looked stunning on her cos she's really tall and thin (can't find any resembling in the Internet)
Speaking of decolletes, she has an amazing jersey with it so almost all of her back is opened.
She wears all the things I can wear - sexy dresses and tight jeans, quilling shirts and tank tops.Jeans and formal jackets.
4) High heels.
She doesn't wear any crazy Lady Gaga kinda heels, nothing too colorful or plastic or strange. She prefers something more convenient yet hot. Take a look!
She has it all, oh yeah, she rules it.
Why are they bound?
I began drawing the faces of my reality with this two people (Nadine and Zut), which is against chronology, any common sense and sense of impact.
Thinking of reasons I might say that this people are the most "today" and "hot" in my brain-newsletter. They are the most real urgent issues while others fade in some mist.
Which is pretty mean.
Also...The more I think about all my mates the more they get all paired together in my head sharing some similarities I find...Maybe it's really because I do think too much.
But how can you blame me? I have nothing better to do.
So Zut and Nadine are, indeed, bound together in my head. Not because they're a couple which they are not. No. There other things I see and hope someone else would find kinda fun.
This is what I see:
1) They're both Beautiful.
Ha! Wanna say this is too pop music alike? "Go away, girl, we've had enough of this, bring us ugly ducklings"?
Just let me finish.
I don't mean the appearance which I find very tempting for both, but the way they act.
You can exactly say when the person knows he\has IT. The charm, some magic, inspiration, power over others - whatever, you can feel it, it's in the air. THEY KNOW WHO THEY ARE. and they use it.
2) There's something dirty in their past, present and future which they hold secret and still in a wicked way admire. Something inside their minds which is only known to themselves, something not very high and pretty...They're their sins which make them so charming.
3) The Back-turning point/ "whatever" edge. It's about the right to finish the conversation whenever they want saying "yeah whatever bye" and leave. Without thinking what you might feel about it. It's also about never answering to some of your questions or just being silent for a whole day 'cause they're just not in the mood for you.
4) They are the ones you do something for. They let you do that. They appreciate this, and yet they WAIT for this, they wait for you to suggest, to help, to clear something up, and you sure do this under their precious attention pressure yet they're never obliged to do something for you. Their attention is your payment. And they sure make you doubt if you deserve that attention or not.
5) Relationship stories. Keeping this tiny little sins a secret they build a huge manor of a broken-hearted character for themselves. At private parties they would on occasion reveal some hidden aches of their hearts, knowing for sure that no one around can ever be more broken hearted and beautiful in that love-posessed body, than they are. A greatest pleasure indeed to tell all the audience how many times have they been admired and worshiped, which vows were made and how things once turned black. Love is all around.
6) The last, and the most selfish point - their attitude towards me.
I dare say they both had made me their background. I think this way because we are good while I keep listening to them, being funny and more like non-existent character. When I don't reveal any feelings or desires which any normal human being possesses - they seem to like me. But when something clouds my view, when I dare to show resentment or fear or sadness - they try to keep face and knock me off like a flea from their cloth simultaneously.
Thinking of reasons I might say that this people are the most "today" and "hot" in my brain-newsletter. They are the most real urgent issues while others fade in some mist.
Which is pretty mean.
Also...The more I think about all my mates the more they get all paired together in my head sharing some similarities I find...Maybe it's really because I do think too much.
But how can you blame me? I have nothing better to do.
So Zut and Nadine are, indeed, bound together in my head. Not because they're a couple which they are not. No. There other things I see and hope someone else would find kinda fun.
This is what I see:
1) They're both Beautiful.
Ha! Wanna say this is too pop music alike? "Go away, girl, we've had enough of this, bring us ugly ducklings"?
Just let me finish.
I don't mean the appearance which I find very tempting for both, but the way they act.
You can exactly say when the person knows he\has IT. The charm, some magic, inspiration, power over others - whatever, you can feel it, it's in the air. THEY KNOW WHO THEY ARE. and they use it.
2) There's something dirty in their past, present and future which they hold secret and still in a wicked way admire. Something inside their minds which is only known to themselves, something not very high and pretty...They're their sins which make them so charming.
3) The Back-turning point/ "whatever" edge. It's about the right to finish the conversation whenever they want saying "yeah whatever bye" and leave. Without thinking what you might feel about it. It's also about never answering to some of your questions or just being silent for a whole day 'cause they're just not in the mood for you.
4) They are the ones you do something for. They let you do that. They appreciate this, and yet they WAIT for this, they wait for you to suggest, to help, to clear something up, and you sure do this under their precious attention pressure yet they're never obliged to do something for you. Their attention is your payment. And they sure make you doubt if you deserve that attention or not.
5) Relationship stories. Keeping this tiny little sins a secret they build a huge manor of a broken-hearted character for themselves. At private parties they would on occasion reveal some hidden aches of their hearts, knowing for sure that no one around can ever be more broken hearted and beautiful in that love-posessed body, than they are. A greatest pleasure indeed to tell all the audience how many times have they been admired and worshiped, which vows were made and how things once turned black. Love is all around.
6) The last, and the most selfish point - their attitude towards me.
I dare say they both had made me their background. I think this way because we are good while I keep listening to them, being funny and more like non-existent character. When I don't reveal any feelings or desires which any normal human being possesses - they seem to like me. But when something clouds my view, when I dare to show resentment or fear or sadness - they try to keep face and knock me off like a flea from their cloth simultaneously.
суббота, 2 июля 2011 г.
Zut
He had to be the first one whom I'd write about, but I went with Nadine, don't exactly know why. I've been thinking what kind of a name could I give him? Something whispers that Zut is the perfect one. (Yeah yeah I'm aware of all the French stuff in the meaning, I just think there's no word which could fit better) Damn beautiful.
No pictures this time - don't want to get all non-anonymous, and don't want to spoilyour idea posting some random guy - this won't go.
So, here we go, Zut.
Once in a while we come across people who seem to be a lot more real and colorful than anything. Crazy flaming beat of life with all that it involves - high and low, wide and narrow, far and close, deep and shallow...Everything that this life might contain suddenly embodies in this tiny piece of sweat, flesh, laugh, hormones and curls.
Love watching him. Never thought that a stupid waste of time as it is - just thinking of a person in my very special analytical way - might turn into such fun. It is really a game we play, a pact we've made - I'll never turn away from you whatever hard you push me and do my best to help if needed, and you, in return, would let me in some tiny pieces of a sacrament of your life.
Freakin' friends, ha? How perfectly I always choose people completely different from what I am.
When he enters the building he greets almost everyone. He knows them, he had a good party with this guys, he'd slept with this girl, oh, and with this too, he knows that one for being dull but never shows it and here he goes! - right through the crowds faster further further further.
He's racy, and dirty, and vulturous; healthy and magnetic, true animal, turning from a lamb into a wolf within a blink of an eye.When he speaks to Nadine the amount of electricity in the air is just enough for you to recharge your mobile phone. It's when he leans closer, it's when he tries her out saying something on the edge of rude/sexy borderline she loses her usual 'unapproachable princess' kinda behavior pattern and becomes all dizzy. Her voice lowers too, as she tries to be sharp-tongued, but can she compete with him? And she loses the match again, which I'm sure makes their communication even more pleasant for both of them.
He has it all at once - charisma and beauty, not afraid of this word, talent (he's a musician) and intelligence, drive to life, energy (friggin lots of it), lovelife, sense of humour and something else, which I can't quite distinguish yet. I once put it into words as being " very true". Can't say better this time.
What amazes me is his absolute inability to judge whether he thinks something or someone is from his world or not. He's with everyone, always surrounded by the crowd who needs him (I bet they'd die from boredom without that lightning bulb) - feels like he really doesn't know who he is. Not that I do know who am I. But I still feel like I know a little bit more in this freaky world of mine than he does in that funhouse of his.
Dark side allures the guy. Who is against that? Guess, Nadine is. His desire to play bad, harsh, be a heart- and rule-breaker definitely scares her, as her morals are much higher than that. Still this are the things which turn her on about him, swear I can see that.
Personally, I'm not against any of his sides, I'm more kind of curious what is coming up next.
He reads those dirty books now and possibly this is the world of his - by his own eyes: very strong flavour of sex and love which has gone off. I see also that this is actually the way he likes it. Isn't that amazing? He behaves like an ass not because he is an ass but because he likes being an ass. Wow people I'm never getting tiered of this.
No pictures this time - don't want to get all non-anonymous, and don't want to spoilyour idea posting some random guy - this won't go.
So, here we go, Zut.
Once in a while we come across people who seem to be a lot more real and colorful than anything. Crazy flaming beat of life with all that it involves - high and low, wide and narrow, far and close, deep and shallow...Everything that this life might contain suddenly embodies in this tiny piece of sweat, flesh, laugh, hormones and curls.
Love watching him. Never thought that a stupid waste of time as it is - just thinking of a person in my very special analytical way - might turn into such fun. It is really a game we play, a pact we've made - I'll never turn away from you whatever hard you push me and do my best to help if needed, and you, in return, would let me in some tiny pieces of a sacrament of your life.
Freakin' friends, ha? How perfectly I always choose people completely different from what I am.
When he enters the building he greets almost everyone. He knows them, he had a good party with this guys, he'd slept with this girl, oh, and with this too, he knows that one for being dull but never shows it and here he goes! - right through the crowds faster further further further.
He's racy, and dirty, and vulturous; healthy and magnetic, true animal, turning from a lamb into a wolf within a blink of an eye.When he speaks to Nadine the amount of electricity in the air is just enough for you to recharge your mobile phone. It's when he leans closer, it's when he tries her out saying something on the edge of rude/sexy borderline she loses her usual 'unapproachable princess' kinda behavior pattern and becomes all dizzy. Her voice lowers too, as she tries to be sharp-tongued, but can she compete with him? And she loses the match again, which I'm sure makes their communication even more pleasant for both of them.
He has it all at once - charisma and beauty, not afraid of this word, talent (he's a musician) and intelligence, drive to life, energy (friggin lots of it), lovelife, sense of humour and something else, which I can't quite distinguish yet. I once put it into words as being " very true". Can't say better this time.
What amazes me is his absolute inability to judge whether he thinks something or someone is from his world or not. He's with everyone, always surrounded by the crowd who needs him (I bet they'd die from boredom without that lightning bulb) - feels like he really doesn't know who he is. Not that I do know who am I. But I still feel like I know a little bit more in this freaky world of mine than he does in that funhouse of his.
Dark side allures the guy. Who is against that? Guess, Nadine is. His desire to play bad, harsh, be a heart- and rule-breaker definitely scares her, as her morals are much higher than that. Still this are the things which turn her on about him, swear I can see that.
Personally, I'm not against any of his sides, I'm more kind of curious what is coming up next.
He reads those dirty books now and possibly this is the world of his - by his own eyes: very strong flavour of sex and love which has gone off. I see also that this is actually the way he likes it. Isn't that amazing? He behaves like an ass not because he is an ass but because he likes being an ass. Wow people I'm never getting tiered of this.
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